Home. See, I don't really have one, but I have many. I have sold two physical homes that I really loved. I have rented places that didn't seem like home even though they housed my family and held our stuff.
I used to think Kansas was the only home I would ever have, but now Nashville is just as much a home. We are working on a 140 year old home to move in to, but I don't know when it will be done. For now I am in my parent's home. It felt like home when I was a kid, but now it's different.
It's weird not to have a place of your own. But I still feel at home when I am with friends I love. It's home when I can walk it, and sit down, and relax. When I feel welcome. When I know my kids are loved. That's home.
With a home of my own on the horizon, I am thinking about how I want home to look again. It's been so long since the six of us had a home, our own place and our own borders. Sometimes I wonder if I will remember what that's like.
Home. I might just feel a bit like a gypsy for awhile. I don't feel quite grounded yet. I think with my soul as restless as it is, it may take finding ways to experience peace.
The bits of home I have are that more precious because of the home I have had to give up.
Totally understand the feeling of missing your own space! I've lived in my best friend's unfinished basement TWICE myself, and now live in an apartment that just refuses to quit feeling strange and unfamiliar...because I'm an ocean away from "home."
ReplyDeleteI love this thought--"the bits of home I have are more precious because of the home I have had to give up." Thank you for sharing this today; it really struck a chord with me :).
@Sadee Schilling
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by. :o) Appreciate the kind words.
Oh how I understand! We just moved back into a "house" in March after being in an RV for a year. It was hard but oh the things that we learned. Thanks for sharing a bit of your story with us!
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like the house you are working in will be a wonderful home.
ReplyDelete@Rambling Heather
ReplyDeleteWow, I bet an RV for a year was quite an adventure! :o) I think God uses uncomfortable situations to grow us and teach us. Thanks for stopping by!
@JDaniel4's Mom
ReplyDeleteI appreciate you stopping by, and for you very kind words. :o)
Home is where you can just be accepted. Its funny but at some peoples homes we can feel more "at home" than in out own space.
ReplyDelete@iblogdoyou
ReplyDeleteThe older I get, the more I am finding this to be so true. Thanks for stopping by my blog.