The storm has passed through for the time being.  I have felt lighter that last couple of days.  That usually happens to me.  If I kind of touch the bottom with my toe it is enough to send me back up for air for awhile.  I think there is a lot of dying to self that I need to do.  I started a bit of that over the last two days, but boy is it hard.  It is good for me to not assume that all of the problem lies in things or people other than myself.  I need to take those planks from my eyes to stoke the fire of change.  Funny how I thought the tests in nursing school were hard!  I am pretty much guaranteed to fall and fail at all this.  But I am learning.  It is all any of us can do.